Jennifer Hudson Opens Up About Family Murders
Hi guys! I’m back! Finally getting back the strength to blog. My mum regularly commented on my blog and I really miss her. What better way to come back than with Jennifer Hudson, a person who has shown such tremendous strength in the face of debilitating tragedy. Jennifer and her fiancé, David Otunga were featured on Own’s Next Chapter last night in a very candid interview with Oprah Winfrey. During the interview, Jennifer talked about her family murders and whether she’s forgiven William Balfour as well as her weight loss and feeling the pressures of Hollywood. Meanwhile, David chatted about whether or not she was sexier before the weight loss, wanting a daughter and the two revealed that they are planning to get married within the next two years.
Check out some excerpts:
On If She’s More Comfortable At This Size:
I’ve always been comfortable in my skin. I like the skin that I’m in. I don’t ever feel like I was uncomfortable. I honestly don’t. Yes, at times I feel sexier. At times. [when asked if she feels prettier:] I was always cute.
David On if He Thinks She’s Sexier at a Size 6 or 16:
You know honestly, it’s pretty much the same. It hasn’t really changed that much to be honest. She’s a little more confident now and that kind of sticks out but to me, but I liked her then too. Very much so. I kind of like the curves. I love the way she looks now but I’ll be honest, I enjoy the curves.
One of the things that’s sexiest to me is when she’s doing motherly things. It’s just like, it’s a complete different side.
J Hud On Being Called ‘The Big Girl’ in Interviews After ‘Dreamgirls’:
I had lost, like, 60 pounds then. I was exercising everyday, I got down to a size 12 and I got to Hollywood and they were like, ‘How do you feel being the big girl?’ and I was like [looks around], ‘Who are they talking to?’ I literally looked around like, this is normal. This is fine. This is average. Where I come from this is totally fine so I couldn’t understand. Or, another one they would say is, ‘Do you feel insecure being the big girl?’ and I’m like, ‘Why should I feel insecure?’ I remember saying I have the height of a model, I have lips people pay for — things like that. I was highlighting these things.”
On Her Wedding:
There is a wedding date.[…]As a matter of fact, you were the one who said, ‘Take your time.
On If They Want More Kids:
David: We definitely [want a daughter]. We want to have at least one of each.
On Her Family’s Murders:
I can’t say that I have [explained these deaths to myself]. I don’t know the proper words because I never would have imagined this being anywhere near my life or a part of it or ever happening. Who could imagine that. No one. It’s like, I can’t even say it, and when I [do] say it, that’s when I find myself being most emotional. How could this happen? Did this really happen? You know what I mean? That’s when you know it’s real when you find yourself saying it, or having to say it.
[Seeing William Balfour in the courtroom] made my skin crawl.
On If She’s Forgiven Balfour:
Yes. For the most part it’s not his fault. It’s what he was taught, how he was brought up. We tried to offer love but you were so far gone you couldn’t even see that. A lot of things came out that we didn’t even know about from his upbringing so it’s like, he never had a chance. You never had a chance. Had you had the love that our mother gave us or the background that some have, then you would’ve stood a chance. So how could your heart not go out to that.[…]He’s still very responsible, I’m not letting him off the hook for anything.
On Thinking of Her Family as ‘Gone’ & Not ‘Murdered’:
That is the part that hurts you. Like, little things make me think of it. Again, in knowing everything that happened and how it happened — I remember one time when William had an argument with my sister, they had split up and [Oprah says ‘the murderer’] — see, I don’t even know how to say that — he went up to her job and he told her I’m going to take Julien. Julien went home and told my mother, and she said ‘Over my dead body.’ That’s exactly what happened.
Check out video from the show on Oprah’s Next Chapter.